While detoxing from society if you will, at first the silence was deafening… You may recall reading about that in November. I had nowhere to run or no "vices" to avoid the silence of facing life, myself and the reality that we had chosen this path be to still…
Now, I can truly say that after 4 months, the silence is the most peaceful thing I could have ever imagined. I look forward to silence! I even find myself turning off the radio now. In fact, it's been a week or 2 that we have not even had that on. I am not saying that a radio is a bad thing. What I am saying is that I prefer the silence over the background noise. I have even turned my phone off now and just turn it on when I need to make a phone call.
I love hearing the ticking of the clock, the hand timer on the stove (ticking right now as I am waiting for a coffee cake to come out of the oven), and the fire crackling (2 fires going). Did you know that even oil lamps make a very still and quiet noise while burning? And just today I actually heard my eyes blinking as I woke up! You can only hear this in the extreme silence. It was the neatest thing.
I am enjoying facing my thoughts now with a clear and still understanding. I love hearing new and undiscovered sounds. I love hearing the house at night with children breathing up and downstairs without the refrigerator humming… I love this life!