Thursday, April 16, 2009

this is getting old!

her or me first? you take a guess below! Do you see that antagonizing look in her face saying, "its going to be me first honey"! Well girlie, Ang is up for the challenge!

Let’s just all admit it, this blog has gotten VERY BORING as of late… NO encouraging posts to follow your dreams and convictions, no neat stories about living off-grid (although so much has been happening around here). NOTHING! Quite frankly I am ornery and sick of being sick. This is all lingering still as well as a low grade fever. If you think this blog is old, you should pay a visit here! Well actually, that’s ok if you don’t!
I feel horrible because I am no fun right now; all I do is lay in my bed and all. My children have been troopers through this. I hope they are not traumatized for life of seeing mother laying in a bed for this long and being no fun! I have so much mother and ovarian guilt about all of this right now!
Yesterday was my first day out (besides dr. appts) since about March 30, 2009! I have been lying here thinking I am really not ready for this baby preparation wise. First baby you have the nursery set up about 4 months ahead of time and your house is in order… Last time I put the cleaned used crib sheets on the crib (that was in our bedroom) and had the GREAT HIM 5 hours later. Yesterday I bought the mattress for the cradle. (The Gentle Giant had a custom built Amish cradle made for the new babe, a big surprise and it’s beautiful) I needed to pick up a few things and time seems of the essence as a Dr. Appt. last Friday said things are moving right along… I have been anxious to say the least. Dr says, “Don’t wait, and if you go in labor get there as you are about 40 minutes away from hospital”. Last time I delivered in about an hour or so of arrival of the Great Him.
So here we are last night, everything just fine and WHAM, nausea and more took over in a matter of 2 minutes, out of control, like no stopping any of it. I ran a tub bath at 12:30 pm and sat in it to relax and it kept getting worse. Finally at around 4:00 of 2-3 minute apart contractions, I woke up the Gentle Giant and said this has been going on for about 5 hours, we better go and I was in pain! So, we make the treck and get to hospital, long story real short I was contracting due to dehydration again and had a mild fever and then when they said, “Sweetie, you are not in real labor even though we can see your contractions on the screen, the contractions due to the dehydration”… Then I just lost it and started weeping like a baby. I am exhausted, feel horrid and I was at least thinking” well, I will be having this babe soon” so things seemed to be better for a moment but only a moment…
Things will be dull here for a while but I hope you hang with us, hang with me!!!
One thing is for sure, I am not going back to that darned hospital till I really know this is the real ding. That could be a head crowning.

Oh, 1 more thing. If that baby girl goat of ours (she actually is not a baby but we call her that) has her babies before me, she is in HUGE trouble!


lady m's lavender cottage said...

I am sending you lots of hugs right now. Hang in there...the baby will come when he is ready.

"do not fret..."


Lady M

Mama Hen said...

I am so sorry. I went to the hospital with my fourth too early and I did cry. I practically begged them to let me stay and have the baby, but they sent me home. After I got over being mad and I cried again.

Gracie said...

I am not laughing at you but I have to say I did grin a few times though this post :)(mostly about the goat :)) are doing GREAT and your kids will only be thankful to have you back when this is over...they are happy to help I am sure. You are a wonderful mother and this is what has to be done right now.
I was on 100% bedrest from 21 weeks with Benjamin and I felt AWFUL guilt about it (although I was not sick or in pain for the most part like you are now) but I also knew this is what HAD to be done.

You are doing WONDERFUL! With Benjamin, they sent me home dialated to 5 but it was so early, they actually tried to STOP it- all I wanted to do was have the babe- I do know the feeling of weeping like a baby out of pure end of your rope exhaustion and being sent home in labor (they had his hat and blanket in the warmer all ready to go- I was SO sad :(
I really do feel for you right now and you are ill to boot!
You are a REAL tropper...and, I still find your blog enjoyable and real because this is real life right now. We will pray for health for you and the babe- hang in there girl...we love you!

Anonymous said...

awww, the time will come soon enough Ang. The blessing is when it is all over you won't remember how ill you felt, you will have a gorgeous bundle of joy to hold!
In the meantime rest plenty.

lisa said...

I have been following your blog for some time and I find your stength to be awesome..Yes vent all you want and your followers are praying and I WILL stay with your blog..Lisa

shelia said...

i'll be lifting you up in prayers...hope your feeling better as you wait for your little one ;)

Ann at eightacresofeden said...

Dearest Ang,
I've just opened up my Bible and asked God for a scripture to encourage you right there on your bed and in the Psalms I found these verses.
'When I remember You on my bed, I meditate in the night watches. Because you have been my help, Therefore in the shadow of your wings I will rejoice. My soul follows close behind you; Your right hand upholds me.
Psalm 63 6-8 AND THERE'S MORE!...

from Psalm 91 14-15 (I've taken the liberty of changing him to her because this promise is for you!)

'Because she has set her love upon Me, therefore I will deliver her. I will set her on high; because she has known my name. She shall call upon Me, and I will answer her. I will be with her in trouble; I will deliver her and honor her.'

Sent with love and lots of prayer

Homemaker Ang said...

ann! just what i needed! I will ask for my bible and read it here!
xoxoxox thank you so much!
sorry i have been a stranger lately. australia sounds good right now :)

Anonymous said...

First and most important, you just hang in there and have that baby, and drink lots of fluids and you'll feel better. With all your bloggers praying many times a day for you, there is NO WAY that you can feel icky. We Bloggers, have Prayer Power!!!

Second of all, your blog is not boring. I love it. I like to hear about your days that you think are boring. To me, who does not live on the Grid Farm - it is SO INTERESTING!! I promise you, it's not boring. You just think it is because you do the same things day after day. But I find it, and MANY others find it Interesting, Exciting, Funny and we are waiting for our baby no matter what!!!!!!
Can't wait to see pictures of the cradle that GG made for you. What a loving jesture!! Three cheers for GG!! and hugs too!!

Hang in there, know we are all urging you on, cheering, praying and sending you hugs and kisses!!

Selah said...

Hang in there. I was on bed rest with my last two. It's no fun at all. I was also dehydrated. Try putting a glass of ice water beside your bed and concentrate on drinking at least 10 of them every day. It's hard not to feel guilty, but I found that my children really rose to occasion and even bragged a little about all of their hard work later. They were proud of themselves. Please don't give up the blog. I just found it about a month ago and have really enjoyed getting to know you and reading about your life off grid. This is where we are headed and you are a real source of inspiration. Take care. It will be over soon. God bless.

Laurie in NC

anita said...

Thinking of daughter is 13 days overdue with her fourth baby...

Joannah said...

Hang in there, Ang! I wish I could swing by and bring you some Smart Water. It's my water of choice when I'm needing serious fluids because it has electrolytes in it. I've been drinking it this week like crazy.

I wish I had the right words to encourage you. Please know that you are in my heart and in my prayers.

Missa said...

I'm so sorry to hear your stuck in bed. With spring and all I'm sure that's torture! No worries I'm sure you wont lose any of your loyal followers!! I know I'm EXTREMELY grateful for your blog. You'r adventures help me to believe I'm not the only one who values family and simplicity. Although sometimes it sure feels like it! Thank you for writting the blog and sharing your ordeals no matter how mundane you may think they are :) It's just nice to know there's someone else out there! Keep up the amazing work, and keep us posted on the baby progress!

Blessings to you and yours!

April said...

Hang in there! I'll be praying for you to have a safe delivery and for the time to pass by quickly for you.

Sharon said...

To everything there is a season and a purpose for everything under the sun(can't remember ref.) Evidentally this is your season to be in bed. When it's over you'll find lessons learned in it(that always happens). And, even if your kids remember this as a horrible time, by the time they're grown, the good memories will far outweigh the bad. Our family went through some really trying times while my kids were growing up (to say the least) and all I hear them talk about are the fun times. God is merciful! May God's peace be with you, Sharon

My Own Terms said...

Many prayers for you and the new babe. And don't worry too much about the other kiddos, they will bounce back fine.

Stone Bridge Farm said...

Hang in there know these last few weeks drag on...we will pray for you and yours..good luck!

Lisa said...

Bless your heart; I am so sorry this has been so difficult.
I understand the going to the hospital just to be sent home. URR! It is frustrating. But hopefully you will have a beautiful baby soon. (before the goat!)
The kids will be fine; it will be a distant memory very quickly. No worries.
Be strong and keep blogging. As we move to homesteading your blog is encouraging to me. I need the support as we have no one around us doing this.
Take care,

Lisa Q

Hot Belly Mama said...

you have your hands full! and no, your blog is NOT boring. If it makes you feel any better, I am on my first baby and have nothing set up either. What will I be doing when I have my fourth?

gail said...

Oh dear poor Ang,

I think of you often during the day and wonder how you're feeling. Hang in there Ang, it will be all over soon and you'll be feeling so much beeter and have a beautiful new baby. Please know that you and your wonderful family are in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to reading your next post and if you need to have a winge then do so because if you can't tell your friends how you feel who can you tell. I feel priviledged to be your internet friend. .As Gracie has said your blog is real life and thats how we like it.

Blessings Gail

Tea with Willow said...

Your blog is *never* boring!! We are all right there with you, waiting for your babe to be born! In the meantime though, hang in there, you're doing so well!!

Willow xx

A Bite of Country Cupcakes said...

Not boring just all part of he journey you so generously have let us come aslong on:)
All the best and hope Bay comes in due time and life gets cherrier

Peggy Lorenz said...

Be careful waiting until the last minute to get to the hospital...I did that, and ended up having my daughter on the bedroom floor (though we were only 6 blocks from the hospital!!). Blessings to you!

Brenda@CoffeeTeaBooks said...

My daughter was twelve when her brother was born (he's now nineteen).

I was already a high risk pregnancy due to age and a previous preemie birth (my first son).

I spent most of that pregnancy very sick, going to the doctor each week for shots to keep from premature labor, and I gained 70 lbs. due to being flat on my back and eating too much.

I wondered what affect it would have on her but she now has four children and is having that "baby feeling" again.

Thankfully, my pregnancy didn't warp her... or the fact her brother didn't sleep through the night until he was eighteen months old. :)

I pray for you. It's now been a long time but I can remember going bonkers.

autumnesf said...

God promises us different seasons... Can you imagine how boring a blog would be if we only saw one season in the writers life???

Love reading your blog in all seasons! Hang in there.

mamapease said...

Oh, how I remember what the waiting game feels like and I wouldn't want to be in your shoes. Especially being sick! I only have three babies and they were all a week late. Hoping you are in labor RIGHT NOW!!! Or better yet, holding your babe and resting.


Gracie said...

Oh Ang I am LOL literally @ the look of the goat- if she goes before you...Ohhhh....

Mrs. Peterson's Place said...

Hi Ang, I wish I could give you a hug. As I read your post my first thought was that the Lord is right beside you, He knows the life that you carry in your womb and knows the timing will be perfect. I will pray for you tonight.

This is the time to step back and "be good to yourself." Most things will still be there and your kids are very loving and supportive. They will understand, if not now..someday. This too shall pass, rest in the Lord's presence with you.

I wish you God's peace,

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